1. 'Letter to Huiling' has been taken down.
2. Diary (3) has been created.
3. 4/4/2003 diary has been put up.

I've always wanted nothing, but a peaceful and normal life. A life far away from the city. A life far away from the ills of the society. A life far away from the realities i faced today. My wish is crushed just at that moment when i chose that path. I am very confused and lost in this world of isolation. I am forced not to breathe a word to anyone. I can't cry, nor can i ever show my sadness in front of you all. I have tried putting up a false front by being crazy and happy in front of so many. I know i can't hold this for long. I know, it is very selfish of me to leave all my loved ones behind. I do not know if u would ever blame me for leaving u one day. But please feel happy for me. I am free of all my troubles now.

According to my religion, I have to be punished for committing suicide. I must say that i am really scared. I do not know what kind of situation they will put me in. But do not worry for me. I will be prepared to serve any punishment the moment i decided to kill myself. I will not be lonely. I have friends accompanying me. I will find granny. I am glad to leave all my miseries behind. I love u all!

of her granny who bid everyone farewell on 9th March 2002.

• To my Mom and Dad. I loves you all! Thank you for bringing me to the world, for giving me life, and for being there always.
• To my elder brother. Thanks for your presence, and for all your companionship throughout the years.
• To my hamsters, thanks for bringing me inifinite joy over these few months. Life with u all around is much more lively.
• To Yanping, thanks for being there everytime i need u. I treasure u as a friend n as my god-sister.
• To Jeanette, no matter who goes first, I will definitely miss u.
• To Huiling, thanks for being such a caring pen-pal and for being so sweet at times.