I have been feeling suicidal and very moody lately. Been feeling quite abnormal when i compared myself from the norms.The friend whom i once thought that i could confide in, turned out to be a petty and sarcastic girl who would only look down on people. I accidentally revealed to her that i could not go anywhere alone as my bf has a tight control over me. There was once when i told her that i can't wear anything too revealing. She criticised me for being conservative in my dresssings. Well, i do not mind that comment cos the fact is, i am very conservative not only in my dressings, but in my thoughts as well. 2 days ago, I mentioned something abt shopping online. She didn't know much about Internet and all she knows are going out and have fun! So she told me to stop sticking to the computer, and go out for a walk. Well, i assumed that she was trying to imply that i am a nerd. I was quite offended by that remark, as her expressions show that she didn't just want to comment, but to critize. On the way home when we were on the bus, one of my friends mentioned about wearing hipsters. I said that i didn't like wearing though i have. This girl immediately rebuked to say that what i was wearing at that time wasn't hipsters! Did i ever say that mine is? The girl showed a look of unhappiness the moment she made that comment. Did i offend her in anyway? Or is she so jealous of me to an extend that she has to criticize my fashion sense and nerdy characteristics? I may be conservative and nerdy, but i believe that my brain has more knowledge when compared to all that she knows about shopping, fashion and having fun!

3 days ago, my bf called me in school. We were chatting happily when I asked my friend K about Y's wherabouts. My bf heard that name over the phone and thought that she was a male. So he asked me something like " Why am i calling out a male's name?" But i heard it wrongly and thought he asked me why am i always talking about guys. So i told him giggly that i was not, and at the same time, i told K that my bf said that i am always talking about guys. And K and I were laughing away. My bf wasn't happy with what i told K and he scolded me. He didn't want me to give others a false impression abt him and he got angry immediately. I really thought i heard him asking why am i always talking about guys but he said no! It's strange cos i really heard him asking me that. Nevertheless, i apologise to him to prevent further conflicts as the fact was, we were chatting happily earlier on, so why bother to quarrel over nothing? But he wasn't appease and continued to argue with me. I was frustrated over the fact that he wanted to argue when we were happy initially, so i asked if he wanted to find problem. He said no but i was the one who was trying to create problem with him. Oh well... my fault again.... nevermind.