Dad
Sorry for not giving you any gifts during Father's Day every year. I made an exception this year. I didn't know why. I would really like to thank you for doing so much for the family. I could tell that you have made many sacrifices for us, be it good or bad. I really appreciate all that. I have always look upon to you as a good daddy and also a good husband to mummy. I am proud of you.. But dad, i hope that you could stand up for yourself at times and don't let anyone bully you.  I am also sorry if i have avoided you in the past whenever you mentioned granny. I know that you feel deeply saddened by the whole matter, and needed someone to talk to. I knew it all! Cos i felt the same way. However, i dare not cry in front of you. You have been looking very frail these few months. Please do take care. I am really worried every night.

Mom
I have always regretted choosing this path. I never want to neglect you, nor be deemed to be unfillial because I felt a strong sense of attachment to you. But everything is too late now. I can turn back no more. I am stuck in this stage forever. I used to be put in a spot where i didn't know what to do. You were telling me to do one thing, and my bf was telling me to do another, according to our promises. I was under such a great pressure that i didn't know what to do, but to cry silently every night. I used to live in the hope that one day, i could be back to my parents. And i know, the hope is gone forever. Mom, i have always hold u deeply inside my heart, and my wish now is for you to live well. Like what i have stated in my letter, i hope that you would not discuss my problems to anyone. I really felt very ashamed and embarrassed when u did that in front of our relatives.

Kor (Elder Brother)
It's funny addressing you this way, instead of the usual pet name we gave u as 'pig'. I think this shall be the last time i addressed you as kor. Thank you for standing up for me during my first argument with my bf. That was the time when i felt the strong siblings bond between us. At times, i felt that i can't really understand you. I can't explain how but i felt something... weird about you. Anyway, forget about that. I was really glad when i heard from mom that you are intending to further your studies. Make sure you work hard this time, and don't be like me ( Dad and mom invested a huge sum of money on me, and now i am gone). Oh yah, a secret for you... i really miss ya when u went back to camp. I feel that the house has quietened a lot. After i am gone, i hope that you could spare some time for mom and dad. Please take very good care of them.

To my Family

Please take care of my pets when i leave. Please do not send them to any animal welfare association, please do not abandon them. Please let them stay till they part with the family.

To All Surfers

Thank you for visiting. I may not be around by the time you found my website. Committing suicide is a sin, and yes, it's selfish. But i ought to think for myself too. If life is really too unenduring, if life has nothing left for me to fight on, has no more reasons for me to live on... I believe i should be granted the one and only right to kill myself.